Day 1

Day 1 :  A letter to your best friend


Bestfriend, 
We have been through so much stuff together over the years! It only makes sense that you get to be the first person I write a letter to! I love you to death and would be so lost with out you! You are more like family to me than most of my family! Believe it or not this is actually kind of tough to write this right now. I am a little upset with you. You have been so mean and snappy towards me lately and I just don't know what to do about it. I know that you are prego and hormonal and all but i just dont feel like that is all that is going on with you right now. You wont talk to me about it either which makes it even worse. :/  I just don't know what to do anymore. You are so bitchy when I come over to hang out but then I feel bad when I avoid coming over because I know that you get lonely. I just wish that you would just talk to me about what is going on. 

Megan  

Another Blog Challenge

So I have decided that i need to start another blog challenge because well if I dont then I probably wont ever blog again LOL!  I have been searching all over the internet trying to figure out what i should blog about this time around what the challenge should be and I finally came across one! Now we all know that September is a pretty tough month for me! I am kind of relieved that this month will be over as of midnight today! But with that being said I am proud of myself for making it through another rough month! Anyways the Blog Challenge I have picked this time around is called " A letter to" It is going to be a series of letters to people that I know have known and all that good stuff. Like always I am going to post the list on here and then go from there. If you have any blog challenges or ideas for Challenges let me know! I will for sure give them a shot! 


A Letter to…

1. -Your Best Friend
2. -Your Crush
3. -Your parents
4. -Your sibling (or closest relative)
5. -Your dreams
6. -A stranger
7. -Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
8. -Your favorite internet friend
9. -Someone you wish you could meet
10. -Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
11. -A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
12. -The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
13. -Someone you wish could forgive you
14. -Someone you’ve drifted away from
15. -The person you miss the most
16. -Someone that’s not in your state/country
17. -Someone from your childhood
18. -The person that you wish you could be
19. -Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
20. -The one that broke your heart the hardest
21. -Someone you judged by their first impression
22. -Someone you want to give a second chance to
23. -The last person you kissed
24. -The person that gave you your favorite memory
25. -The person you know that is going through the worst of times
26. -The last person you made a pinky promise to
27. -The friendliest person you knew for only one day
28. -Someone that changed your life
29. -The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
30. -Your reflection in the mirror

Why Does This Always Happen?

Does this happen to anyone else? Just when things start to get good it all starts going to hell? Its happening to me! 

Everything has finally been looking up in life Trevor and I are doing better money isnt as tight things are just falling into place.... Then all of the sudden the truck blows a tire. That's $120 that we dont have to spare that we had to spend on a new tire. The very next day Trevor drops me off at work and the truck wont start. It needs a new battery and until it gets on we are going to have to randomly get a jump... Day after that? I find out that while yes I am going to be getting more hours at work but that I am also going to be getting garnished :/ WTF!!! 

Over the years....

I like to think that over the years I have changed a lot.... I know that my appearance has always been my go to thing when I feel like I really really need a change! I was looking thru some pictures the other day and was amazing at the changes I have made... What do you think?

 I was 14

 

I was 15 

 17

 17 with kirstie at age 18

 I had just turned 18 in this one 

I believe I was 19 in this

 19

 19 again  IN both the picture above and the one below

 19 at kirstie and seans wedding

 19 one last time

 20 this was shortly after my bday

 20 again

20 again 

20 

20 again

 Thanksgiving day (i was 20)

 21!! 

21 again

22 :) 

 Last but not least my most recent picture :) 

How much have you changed over the years? Leave me a comment and let me know!!!

 

Day 30 ( LATE)

Day 30: A photo of yourself from today and 3 good things that have happened in the last 30 days. 



Sorry this is so late I spent the actual day 30 at work then at the hospital with bestie. (she is fine) 

The picture that i am putting in here is of me and bestie at the hospital I was braiding her hair for her so that it wouldnt get all crazy tangled on her!  

3 good things that have happened in the last 30 days would be 

1: Trevor and I are doing a lot better!

2: I have disconnected from bad ppl in my life and reconnected to the good ones!

3: I have been getting amazing hours at work! :)

day 29

Day 29: Something that you could never get tired of doing... 


This is a tough one. They say that to much of a good thing is not good. I'm pretty sure that the only thing in the world that I could never get tired of it listening to music.

Day 28

Day 28 : Your fav. movie



MY ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIE IS...












DRUM ROLL PLEASE.....












AMERICAN HISTORY X!!!!!!!!!!!! 

This movie is amazing! I have always thought so! I love everything about it! If you haven't watched it you need to!

Day 27

Day 27 : Put your IPOD on shuffle and list the first 10 songs to play 


Ok So I don't have an IPOD but I do have crap tons of music on my phone so I am gonna put that on shuffle and go from there. 

1.  Gotye : somebody that I used to knoww
2. Dark Lotus : Juggalo Family
3. Katy Perry: I kissed a girl
4. Drake Ft. Lil Wayne : The Motto
5. Maroon 5: Payphone
6. Rihanna FT. Calvin Harris : We found love
7. Santana: Photograph
8. LMFAO: Sexy and I know it
9. Pink: F**kin Perfect
10. Chris Brown : Turn up the music

There you have it ladies and gentlemen the randomness of music that I have on my phone. I'd like to point out that this isnt even the most random of the music on there! I also have Frank Sinatra and Aretha Franklin on there :) 

What about you? Whats the most random thing  you have on your phone/ipod?    

Day 26

Day 26:  Think back to how you were 5 years ago, and how you have changed since then? 


5 years ago I was a mess. Aiden had just passed away and I was trying everything I could to avoid the pain of losing him! I didnt care about anyone around me just myself and the pain that I was feeling. I pushed everyone around me out of my life. I had a few select people that I would talk to. I drank all the time, I was doing drugs all the time. I did whatever I could to get my next high. But I have changed since then.  I don't do drugs anymore I hardly ever drink! I still only have a few people in my life that I will actually talk to but they are the people that have been by my side for years. I am all about living life and 5 years ago I wasnt I just wanted to be numb. But now i know that you have to feel everything in order to live life the way you are supposed to. I am a completely different person now!  

Best Friend!

Happy Birthday Bestie! 

 

 

I know that we have been thru some tough times together but I am so happy that we are still friends I would be so effin lost without you! I hope that you have an amazing birthday! 

 

Day 25

Day 25 : Something that you miss. 



To be honest something that I miss the most is being a kid. I miss not having any responsibilities. I miss the freedom of being able to just go on with life and not really have to worry about anything. 

Day 24

Day 24: What's in your purse? 


My purse is similar to mary poppins bag sometimes! Today isn't as bad as it normally is because I just switched purses a few days ago.. 

My purse contains : 

• A random water bottle
• 2 sets of ear buds
• my walet
• chapstick
• my schedules for the next 2 months 
• Sage leafs for sage tea
• A tea seeping spoon
• 4 hospital gloves
• deodarent
• my phone charger
• sunglasses that I never wear
• 1 broken necklace
• 5 reciepts
• 4 mini lotions
• almost empty bottle of IB profin
• strip of bobby pins
• nail clippers
• generic mio energy
• 2 nail polishes keys 
• 3 pens
• a comb and some random change

So tell me! What's in your purse?  

Day 23

Day  23: 20 facts about yourself! 

1. My Name is Megan
2. I am 22 years old
3. I have a 3 year old son (his name is Kadence)
4. I am in a relationship
5. I work part time at a beauty supply store
6. I am addicted to caffienne
7. I am known for steadily removing people from my life
8. I am a great house keeper! but I am convinced my house is always messy!
9. I have hazel eyes!
10. My favorite color is HOT PINK! 
11. I adore coffee!
12. I love to cook/bake!
13. I eventually want to either have my own business (a coffee shop/bakery) or work with special needs children
14. I am adamantly against breast cancer awareness month/products!
15. I had a baby when I was 17 who passed away from SIDS. His name was Aiden
16. I am afraid of the dark
17. I bite my nails. 
18. I love when my hair is longer but cant get it to do anything so I normally keep it shorter. 
19. I am one of the only people you will ever meet that can be crying her eyes out over something and hear that you need help then wipe my tears off and come to comfort you even though I am hurting too
20. Everyone says that I am rude and outspoken when really I am just brutally honest! 

Day 22

Day 22: Bullet your whole day. 

  First I would like to point out that I was kind of freaking out because I didnt update this morning but then I was soooo happy when I saw that the challenge for today was to bullet the whole Day! WOO HOO 

•  Woke up waay to early 
• Tried to go back to sleep
• Failed miserably because Kadence woke me up
• Laid in bed and pretended to be asleep for a little bit
• finally looked at the clock! 
• only to find out that it was only 7:15! 
• Got online for a little bit
• Decided that we all needed to have donuts for breakfast
• checked phone bestie had been having contractions but they were gone
• went to the store to get donuts got lots of donuts and bug juice and an energy drink also a newspaper
• Talked to bestie about basically nothing LOL 
• Came home ate donuts with Kadence read the paper ( was pissed that the coupons sucked! )
• Trevor finally got up! 
• Forced trevor to eat a donut. 
• Watched Dinosaurs with the family
• Got a call from bestie she as having prego issues 
• rushed to besties house! 
• Then off the the hospital we go
• Stopped at walgreens for drinks and snacks along the way LOL 
• got to the hospital almost cussed the nurse out for being slow! 
• Finally got to the maternity ward!
• Sat around for hours to find out that they dont know what is wrong with bestie
• at some point in time I ripped the ass out of my jeans!!! 
• finally got to leave the hospital went to dillons to fill bestie scripts 
• then we went to Taco Tico for $0.50 tacos!
• stopped at Denny's so man bestie could turn in an app
• hit up the gas station for a much needed mountain dew
• got back to besties! 
• dealt with besties MIL asking 8000000000000000000 questions! 
• fed kids tacos
• hung out for a little bit
• headed home
• watched something with the family
• decided we were hungry
• went to IHOP 
• got horrible service and cold food. 
• Trevor still tipped like $9! 
• Left IHOP 
• went to walmart to get some groceries 
• now we are home and getting ready for bed. 
•  
• Good night

Awesome sale at walgreens

If you havent heard about it already. Today is the last day for the awesome sale at walgreens. they have sinful brand nail polish on sale for $0.99!!! It is an amazing polish! I have some on right now!

Day 21

Day 21 A photo of something that makes you happy. 

 

Day 20 ( late sorry )

Day 20 : The meaning behind your blog name. 

To be completly honest it took me like a week to figure out what to call my blog. I decided that I was going to just post all kinds of random things but that more than likely it was going to contain a lot about being a mom in it. So after days and days of thinking and crossing names off lists including WTF Is On Your Face Child Of Mine!    LOL I decided on "The Joys of Being A Momma. 

Update on life

This is just an update in general. 

First and foremost Trevor and I are doing a lot better! WOO

Now time for the big news! 

Bestie should be having her baby within like 2-3 weeks! So excited especially because They have basically decided to name the baby Logan Alexander (I totally picked that name!) 

But on a down side my little sisters were in a car accident yesterday! They are both ok but the car is totaled! One of them is prego! Her and her baby is ok the other one was on the side that got hit she has a fractured pelvis! But is supposed to be ok! I was so worried about them but I am so happy that they will be ok! 

 

Day 19

Day 19 : another picture of yourself. 

This was taken just few days ago. :)  

Day 18

Day 18: Something that you crave alot? 


The thing that I crave the most is probably Mountain Dew or cigarettes! Sometimes I crave weird shit too though yesterday I was craving a buffalo chicken pizza with Alfredo sauce on it ! It still sounds amazing!  Everyone says that when you are prego you crave the weirdest things! That is soooo not true! When I was prego I never craved anything odd just normal everyday food! But now oh buddy let me tell you! LOL

Day 17

Day 17: Your celebrity crush. 


Ok so anyone who really knows me knows that I am obsessed with Ian Somerhalder! That man is gorgeous! I just did a quick google search to get a picture of him for you guys. 

That is a picture of Ian and Nina Dobrev. they both play in vampire diaries! He is gorgeous! Just gorgeous!  

Day 16

Day 16: A Photo of you and your family... 


When I first saw this one I was really really excited then I realized that I dont have a single picture of Trevor, Kadence and I all together :( We are going to have to fix that but for now I will just post a few random pictures I have of us in general. 

 THis is the only picture I Have of trevor and myself together.

 

Starting to feel better.

Lately I have been pretty sad and depressed. I am slowly starting to feel better. I know that if I just keep trying I will feel even better! I deserve to be happy and feel good about life! Today I took the time to take a shower and actually shave my legs jsut because I could! I full on did my makeup and actually did something with my hair! It felt nice to spend a little extra time on myself. I normally just slap on whatever is closest to me and run a brush through my hair and go. 

 

Day 15

Day 15: Something that you don't leave your house with out? 




The one thing aside from my son that I don't leave with out is my purse! 

September 1st... Today marks 5 years....

Today marks 5 years since I have seen my baby... 5 years since I have held him or smelled his smell... 5 years since I heard him cry... I miss him a lot... But today wasnt as bad as I thought that it would be. I miss him yes but I managed to keep busy almost all day. I worked my ass off at work today. After work my bestfriends came and got me and took me out shopping to keep busy. Now I am home and ready for bed. It has been a long day. But not near as bad as I thought that it would be.

Day 14

Day 14: A TV show you are currently addicted to... 


The show that I have most recently become addicted to is Drop Dead Diva. I friggin love that show!