September 1st... Today marks 5 years....

Today marks 5 years since I have seen my baby... 5 years since I have held him or smelled his smell... 5 years since I heard him cry... I miss him a lot... But today wasnt as bad as I thought that it would be. I miss him yes but I managed to keep busy almost all day. I worked my ass off at work today. After work my bestfriends came and got me and took me out shopping to keep busy. Now I am home and ready for bed. It has been a long day. But not near as bad as I thought that it would be.