Monday, October 29, 2012

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Hello again! 

Just dropping in to let everyone know that they should check out

This site is amazing! I spend so much time on it! You get to earn credits and then use the credits to bid on things! I love it! 

The ups and downs of life.

Life has been pretty bland lately... Get up go to work come home make dinner, give Kadence a bath and get him into bed. blah blah blah. But a few things have happened... 

Our effin house has fleas! OMFG THEY ARE HORRIBLE! We are treating the house tomorrow! I cannot wait! These little fuckers are driving us crazy! Like super crazy! 

I have managed to still not bite my nails!! I did get my new polish on friday! I got 2 instead of one but oh well! I got 2 china glaze polishes, one is called Cranberry Splash and the other is Glistening Snow! I adore them! 

On a different note Kadence has been asking me a lot of questions about Aiden. He wants to know why his brother died, how it happened and why. I don't know how to answer these questions for him.  How do you explain to a 3 year old that his older brother isnt with him because he was a victim of S.I.D.S.?

Saturday, October 27, 2012

New Hair Color (again)

So I finally ditched the light brown and faded pink! We are now rocking a level 5 super rich brown and a level 7 red! I love it! In the first picture you can see my nails they look alot like the red in my hair I posted a picture of the polish I had on in the picture my hair a about 2 shades brighter. I love love love it! And to make it even better after my child like fit when Trevor said that my pink hair looked juvenile he has now take to just tell me that my hair looks good no matter what LOL

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

My challenge for myself

I am a nail biter! I have been for as long as I can remember. Every couple of months I vow that I am going to stop biting my nails so that I can have long gorgeous nails like everyone else in the world but then a couple weeks go by and I end up biting my nails :( Well this time I am really going to do it! I am posting it on here so that way I will have to keep my word to myself and to my followers! It is going to happen this time! I work in a beauty supply store we have thousands of nail polishes that I drool over every single day! So what I am going to do is for every 2 weeks (pay day) that I can make it with out chomping on my nails I am going to buy myself a new polish! I think that it is a good idea! Especially since after my discount the most I ever pay for a polish is like 4.50 and those are just for the promo polishes!!  Wish me luck good friends! 

i will try to post pics of my progress as time goes on! Right now I am about a week and a half into not biting! 

Sunday, October 21, 2012

He is home!

MY DAD IS HOME! He was discharged this morning! He is still in some pain and not feeling the best but he is doing amazing! :):)

Blog Challenge

Ok everyone! As much as I would like to continue the challenge that I picked out for this month I just cant bring myself to do it! I am so sorry but it is so stupid I am having issues keeping up with doing them because they are kind of dumb! 

I will still do my best to post everyday! 

I am going to be posting a review on some false eye lashes later though :) They were interesting to put on that is all I can say for now :)

Friday, October 19, 2012

Update again on my Dad.

Hello again,
I know that I have been updating a lot about my dad but a lot has been happening with him so yeah. He was moved OUT of the ICU today! Which means that he is doing better :)  

That is all for now, I will update more when I know more. 

My Pops

I went to see my dad last night. I was so excited to go see him. He was finally awake! 
When I got there that excitement soon faded. I could tell just by looking at him that he was miserable. He said that he felt horrible. He doesnt remember anything about being in the hospital at all. He remembers going to work on the 8th and that is it. He was worried that he had gone and then been under and no one knew where he was. We made sure to let him know that we all knew where he was the whole time adn that we had been coming to visit him as much as we could. He has been restrained because when he woke up he flailed a lot and accidently hit and kicked a few people, My little sister found out from our Grandma that when our Grandpa went up there to see Dad that Dad was trying to talk him into helping him leave and that when our Grandpa told him no Dad told him to get out. He wants to leave the hospital. It isnt clicking with him that he is there because he is really really sick. It kills me to see him like this. But the fact that he is awake makes it so much better. 

I love you Dad! Keep pushing thru! 

Day 20

Day 20: A Letter To : -The one that broke your heart the hardest

Dear Heart Breaker, 

We were together for so long and did so well. I don't remember for the life of me why we broke up the first time but we did and it hurt. I moved out of town and was gone for 2 years, when I came back you were one of the first people I wanted to see so i called you and you came running to see me. I knew the moment I saw you that we still had our spark. We got back together with in the week. You amazed me daily. I was so in love with you. I remember that on Christmas morning you showed up extra early so that you could wake me up and give me my ring :) It was so sweet! Things were going great for us but then it all just changed all of the sudden.. You broke up with me on Valentines day! I was crushed! Completely and totally crushed. Come to find out weeks later you broke up with me because I didnt do my hair and make up anymore... That was so shallow of you. You broke my heart so bad then you would have thought that I had learned my lesson but nope I let you do it to me 2 more times. But now I know better. I know that I will always love you but that you arent the one for me. I have forgiven you for hurting me and only want the best for you. 


Thursday, October 18, 2012

My Dad,

My Dad started to show improvement on monday and tuesday! His pancreas is starting to shut down! They are going to wake him up today to see if he is able to breathe on his own! If he is then the breathing tube can stay out!

Day 19

Day 19 : A Letter To: -Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Ok I am not even going to try this one! Next time I pick up a blog challenge I am going to make damn sure that I read the whole list of the challenge because some of these are really really stupid! 

Day 18

Day 18:  A Letter To : -The person that you wish you could be

Dear Future Self, 
I am supposed to be writing you a letter but I have no clue what I am supposed to write about so yeah um.. How's life? I just dont know what to say. 


Day 17: A Letter To  -Someone from your childhood

I dont really know who to write this to sooo um yeah here ya go

Dear Child Hood friend who's name I cant remember, 
Man we were so close as friends! We had sleep overs and rode bikes together all that childhood fun but here we are years later and I cant remember your name for the life of me! I know that you went to college and got married had a baby but thats about it... Sorry LOL 


Monday, October 15, 2012

Update on my Dad.

As everyone should know my dad has been in the hospital with pancreatitis. He was put on a ventilator on thursday. My grandma had all of us meet up yesterday so that she could update us on him. She spoke with his doctor that morning and was told that on top of his lungs not functioning his liver has now stopped working. The doctor told her that they dont think that he is going to make, :( I have done nothing but cry off and on since I found out. Please pray to whoever you pray to for my daddy. He has to make it through this! We need him more now than ever before !

Day 16

Day 16 : A Letter To : -Someone that’s not in your state/country

Dear Grandma and PaPa, 
I know that I have been difficult to talk to over the last several years and I am sorry for that, but I need you to remember that I have grown up a lot of the last several years. I am not that little girl that you remember from so long ago. I love you and miss you terribly but I can't let you treat me like I am child anymore that is part of the reason that I don't call anymore. That and the fact that you always act like you are better than everyone. You aren't just so you know. you are just the same as everyone else. Sure you have earned the respect of people but so have I. I deserve to be respected just as much as the next person. I hope that you guys are doing ok. 

Love megan. 

On a side note this is my 100th post! :):) 

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Day 15

Day 15: A Letter To -The person you miss the most

Dear Javanna, 
Dude I miss you soo much! I hate the fact that we live so far apart from each other! We both have kids that are close to the same age and they dont know each other :( We havent seen each other in almost 4 years :( I miss your face banna! 


Day 14

Day 14: A Letter To : -Someone you’ve drifted away from

Dear Sister, 

We used to be so close I would call you about everything. Now we have grown apart. I miss you so much! I miss staying up late with you and talking about anything and everything. I know that you have your own stuff going on but I still miss you sooo much! I just wish that you still lived close to me so that we could still hang out and everything. Either way I love you and miss you sooo much! 

Little Sister!  

Day 13

Day 13 : A Letter To : -Someone you wish could forgive you

This is a tough thing to think about. I am a pretty forgiving person most of the time so I dont have that many people that i havent been able to forgive but the ones that I do have dont deserve to be forgiven. 

Dear Brett, 
I have tried for years to forgive you for not being there for me when Aiden died. You werent there at all it was like you didnt care. You went to wichita and refused to answer your phone for me. I wanted to be the one to tell you that Aiden had passed away but you wouldnt answer yoru phone. I wanted you to be there to help me plan our childs funeral but you werent you didnt show up until the day of the funeral. You expected me to run to you and let you hold me. Why on earth would I have ever done that. You werent there in the days leading up to the funeral. I was so hurt. I still am. You hurt me more than anyone else in the world could. You were there to get me pregnant and then you were gone. You werent there for most of my pregnancy, you werent there for his birth, his death for anything. I hated you for it. I have learned to deal with the hatred I felt then but I dont think that I can ever forgive you for not being there for me. 


Day 12

Day 12: A Letter To:  The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Dear Ex Boyfriend, 

We were so good together when we first got together. I really thought that we would last a really long time. I will never forget how we met. A "friend" set us up because you wanted a booty call and she knew that I would shut you down on the stupid crap. We met at the mall in 3rd planet, You had just got into town I had Kadence with me. I was there shopping around being a girl when our friend called me and told me to come meet you. I didnt like you at first I thought that you were snobby, but our friend insisted that I take your number and consider going on a date with you. I took your number and we started texting back and forth. We went out to dinner a few days later. We went to my fav place to eat. I ate like a dude and you barely ate you had a little appetizer. After that we decided that we should go out and do something else. We were going to go to the strip club because well I just dont remember why we decided on that, My baby sitter had something come up so I had to go get Kadence and couldnt go out. You stayed in with me and we sat around playing stupid games. You had to leave town a couple days later. We continued to text back and forth everyday all day. I knew that I was supposed to be with you. You asked me when I was going to come to you all the time I finally told you that I wanted to move down there to be with you and you came and got me. I dropped everything at home to move to be with you. Things were amazing. I was lonely but it was ok because I had you. Things started to get rocky and before I knew it I found out that you had been messing around with another girl. I left you. I couldnt deal with the pain. I moved back home. I told myself that I wasnt going to talk to you anymore and that I was just done with you. But you kept talking to me and you wouldnt give up on me. I finally gave up and started talkign to you. We ended up getting back together. When you finally came home we got a house together and thats when everything started to fall apart. You were such a different person. I couldnt stand you. You were so controlling and didnt understand when I tried to talk to you about it. I was so hurt.  I tried to work things out but you were so mean and nasty to me all the time without even realizing it. I turned to a friend and you found out you were so upset you made me stop talking to him. I could only take so much before it was finally to much. We broke up. We tried to be civil because of Kadence, You told me that you still wanted to be in his life but then you refused to be there for him when he needed you. I think that that is one of the things that hurt me the most. The fact that you hurt my son. I dont know if I will ever be able to forgive you for the things that you did but just know that while we did have some bad times we still had some pretty good times too. 


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Pray For My Daddy.

My dad is in the hospital with pancreatitus. I didn't know what that was until I found out that he has it. I did a lot of research on it.

The pancreas basically makes acid that is typically released in the small intestine but in his case he has a massive build up of it in his pancreas and it is releasing in his pancreas. This is causing him to be in excrutiating pain even with a morphine drip. They are treating this by basically trying to his pancreas to shut down so that it will stop making the enzymes that are being released in the wrong place. He has been there since monday around noon. He hasnt been aloud to eat or drink anything in attempt to shut down the pancreas. He is still in horrible pain and is now having issues breathing. They had him on oxygen when I went to see him tuesday night. I just found out that he had been moved to the ICU because his stats arent staying up  where they need to be! THey hadnt been able to determine if he had acute pancreatitis or severe acute pancreatitis or chronic pancreatitis. With the extreme drop in stats and having basically no progress we are all leaning towards severe acute pancreatitis or chronic.

I am so worried about my dad. He has always been the strong one in my life. He has always been there for me to pick me up when i am down and now he is really sick and all I can do is cry. I tried talking to bestie about it but she fluffed me off because she just had her baby. I understand that she just had her baby. But her baby is going to be here for a very long time, my dad could die from this. I just need someone to comfort me right now and nobody seems to understand that

Day 11

Day 11 : A Letter to : -A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

 Dear Morgan, 
Holy hell man I miss you so much! I have soooo much going on and could really just use a hug from you and to hear you say that it was going to be ok. I had my old phone that had all my videos of you on it. Kadence broke it last year adn I lost the videos :(:(. I just want you to know that I am sorry that I didnt answer my phone when you needed me. I regret it every single day. I miss you sooo much. I just wish that I could see you one last time. 


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Bestie Had her baby

So Bestie had her baby last night! 

That isnt the best picture but it is the one that I have on my computer so yeah its the one that you get to see! His name is Logan Alexander he was 6lbs 13 oz 20 inches long! And let me tell you he is a screamer! But that is good because besties last baby had lung issues when he was born so it was good to see this little dude come out wailing LOL

Day 10

Day 10 : A Letter to -Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

I am pretty sure that I have already had to at some point in time write a letter like this. 
But oh well I will write it now just to make sure it gets done

Dear Old friend, 
I have known you since I was 12, you are my oldest friend but I never talk to you and you never talk to me. You don't have time and neither do i. I wish that we could find the time to hang out here and there but I am sure if we did your girl would flip out.. I know that she is the reason that we dont talk and to be honest at first I was upset but I understand it now. i hope that you guys are able to work things out. You deserve the best in life and right now she isnt that. Keep in touch. 


Monday, October 8, 2012

Day 9

Day 9 : A Letter To -Someone you wish you could meet

Dear Future Self, 
I really wish that I could meet you! Why? Because then I would be able to ask you if everything I am working towards is the right choice to make or if I am working towards nothing. I want to know if I am headed in the right direction and if I am where is it going to lead me? I just want some reassurance that I am doing the right thing... 

Current Self!  

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Day 8

Day 8: A Letter To: -Your favorite internet friend

Ok so I am supposed to be writing to my fav. internet friend but to be honest I don't think that i have one! SO I am totally not doing this day for this challenge! HAHAHAHA Sorry but I just cant do this one. 

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Day 7

 Day 7: A Letter to -Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

So apparently I get to pick who I write this to. SO I am going to just start writing it. I know who I am writing it to and we will see if you can figure it out... 

Dear Person, 
We have had good times and we have had bad times. We have known each other for so long and one would normally think that that would mean that I knew you the best out of everyone I know. That used to be true. Not anymore. You have a baby now and i have never even seen her. :( I know that we have separated over time but I want you to know that it breaks my heart. I hate that we dont talk anymore because of who you are dating.. It seriously drives me bonkers! But on a more positive note I now know for a fact that no matter what happens I will never go back to you. You have hurt me 1 to many times and I just cant do it ever again. I will always have a soft spot for youbut thats all. I hope that you are happy with her and if you arent then I hope that you find happiness. I will always love you,,, 


Friday, October 5, 2012

Day 6

Day 6 : A Letter To... A stranger

Dear Stranger, 
I don't know you, not even your name. I see you at the gas station almost ever day. . You were behind the counter. You always are. You know that I always get a mountain dew and a pack of camel filters! You typically have it all rang up before I am even at the counter.  We have pointless chit chat every day. But I cant help but feel that you have a lot going on in your life. You have that super stressed out look on your face all the time. I know that you have a family and that your youngest doesnt have the best health. I am sorry if something is going on. Just remember that you are an amazing person and everyday you help make someones day better! The fact that you ask me more about my job and my day than my boyfriend does means a lot to me. Even if you are just a stranger behind a counter. It is nice to know that someone cares about my day. Thank you for being you! 

The girl that gets the mountain dew and camels!  

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Macadamia Flawless

I recently tried Macadamia Flawless! The first thing I asked when I saw it was " What in the world is it? " Well because I know I can't be the only person in the world to wonder what it is here you go.. 

Flawless is the newest addition to the Macadamia Natural Oil range. 
It is an innovative system that combines cleansing, conditioning and ideal hair refinement in one product. Immediate and perfect balance is restored to any hair type, giving gentle and thorough surfactant-free hair cleansing. With a combination of Macadamia Oil and Argan Oil, Flawless works in conjunction with the hair’s natural oils, replenishing hair life and health and imparting manageability, shine and softness. With no stripping suds or parabens, this all in one cleansing and conditioning system will drastically cut down blow drying time, refine the hairs texture and optimise the styling process making hair more manageable.

Now I don't know about you but when I read that I got bored about half way through and stopped reading it LOL! Even now I still only read about half of it before I got bored with it. Basically what it says is that Flawless is an all in one product it cleanses like shampoo and conditions as well. It is basically everything you need for your hair all in one container!

Here are just some of the benefits of Flawless 

  • All-in-one Cleansing and Conditioning System
  • Refines Hair Texture
  • Optimizes Styling Process
  • Drastically Cuts Down Blow Drying Time
  • Perfect For All Hair Types
  • Surfactant-free and Paraben-free
  • No Stripping Suds

  • I read that all the way! No Suds? What? I love super sudsy shampoo! It makes me feel like it is getting extra clean! Anyways I did use this stuff not just check out the container! 

    Ok so now onto the fun part! How to use Flawless! 

    Now you see I was a little set off by the packaging of it. It seriously looks like a can of mousse! But I figured I would try it out anyways! SO  Here are the directions off the can/bottle 
    Lightly emulsify 1 to 2 pumps between hands. Apply to wet hair and gently massage spreading Flawless over hair and scalp area. Continuously massage throughout the hair for 3 to 5 minutes depending on hair type. Add a splash of water to assist in the spreading if needed. Rinse thoroughly. 

    Sounds simple enough.. Right? NOT! Ok so when they say Lightly emulsify 1 to 2 pumps between hands they forget to mention that the pump has a little seal like thing on it that you have to manhandle to get the pump to actually pump and that just when you think that you broke it its good to go! But once you get that stuff to start coming out you are good! Now I'll be honest I didnt really know what emulsify meant at first but then I figured it probably means to just rub that S**t together in my hands (it totally does) So I get some of the Flawless out and start to emulsify it in my hands and just like the bottle says it doesnt turn into suds or anything but it does get kind of foamy like a shaving cream would. Now the massaging part was easy the only issue I had was telling where I had the product and where I didnt but once I got it all into my hair I was good to go! I massaged it in my hair for about 5 minutes or at least I think it was! Then I rinsed it out and finished my shower! It left my hair feeling pretty soft and amazing! I forgot to get some pictures of it that day but it was pretty amazing! It did cut down on the blow dry time too which helped alot because I was running late from fighting with the can to get it to pump out the product! All in all it is a pretty good product just something new that would take some getting used to!  

     You can purchase Flawless at :

    It costs :   $33.00 

    I know it cost a little more than most are willing to spend but remember that it is everything that you need for your hair all in one! 

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    Day 5

    Day 5: A letter to.. 

    -Your dreams

    Ok so to be honest I don't know how the hell I am supposed to write a letter to my dreams. I have been sitting here thinking about this one all day. Even as I was writing all the other posts I needed to catch up on and well I still dont know WTF I am supposed to write about... So instead I am just gonna post a random picture from my computer! and as always I will really just open up my pictures folder and click a picture ;)  

    And apparently you all need to see the last steps for my green eye shadow tutorial LOL

    Day 4

    Day 4: A letter to...

    -Your sibling (or closest relative)

    Well I have a lot of siblings! So I am going to just write a letter to all of them combined as opposed to individually! 

    Brother and Sisters, 

    Man oh Man, The crazy times that we have had! I cherish each and everyone one of you! And dont know where I would be without you! I know that I am closer to some of you than the others but it is nothing personal. Just the fact that they live closer... I love you guys and hope you are all doing ok! 


    Day 3

     Day 3 : A Letter To Your parents

    I am going to write separate letters to my parents but I am also going to do this a little different than most people. I have my mom and then I have Boady and Pat. Boady is the dad that raised me. And Pat is my biological dad, Anyways I just thought that i would let you guys know that before hand :):)

    It has been months since I have spoke to you. And to be honest I dont really care. You are by far the most hurtful person I have ever known. You will always be my mom and I will always love you but to be 100% honest I am happier without you in my life. It pains me to know that my son will never know you but at the same time I am happy that he wont because I dont want him to know you. He has other family here that will be better to him and for him. I am sorry that you arent in the best of health but maybe just maybe it is because of all of the bad things that you have done to everyone that you loved... 


    Hey pops, Hows life? I am so happy that I was lucky enough to have you as my dad growing up but I feel like that since I have "grown up" we have become more and more distant... I know i know it is i a 2 way street and all that jazz but sometimes I feel like you dont really care if we talk. IDK maybe I am just being dramatic.. Any ways I love you old man! 


    I am so happy that I got to meet you! I remember the day that I met you! One of the first things that you said to me was that I looked just like my mom. That still holds true too LOL! I know that I have said some hurtful things to you through the years. I was just upset and hurt. I thought that you didnt want to be around or want anything to do with me. I know now that that was wrong. I am happy that I was able to get over that and that we have gotten so much closer! I was so excited that you were here for christmas last year! I really hope that you can come again sometime! I love you! 


    Playing Catch Up!

    So sorry everyone I just haven't been feeling 100% lately :(:( Im still not feeling the best but I am going to catch up from the last few days of the blog challenge. I also have a few reviews I need to catch up on. So just a heads up I am gonna be  posting a lot today! 


    Monday, October 1, 2012

    Day 2:  A Letter to Your Crush

    Dear Ian Somerhaulder,
      I sincerely hope that they cast you in 50 shades! That would literally be a dream come true! I have watch everything you have even been in! I follow you on twitter and FB. You are amazing! Just wanted to let you know all that good stuff!


     On a side note... Who came up with this blog challenge and how did I not notice that day 2 was this dumb? I tried to sound like an obsessed teenager hope it worked!