Tuesday, December 25, 2012

A Very Merry Christmas!

So first I want to point out how very different mine and Trevor's families are. My family is very laid back and really just likes to get together and relax. Where as with Trevors family his mom always wants every get together to be something amazing with all kinds of stuff to be done.

Kadence waiting to open his presents at my Grandma's house

My little sister Erin and her baby Demi

My Aunt Dawn and Grandpa waiting for presents.

My Grandma and My cousin Christopher handing out Gifts.

My little sister Tyler's Christmas face :) she is so much like me!

My Dad being blinded.

We all take turns opening presents! Kadence got to go first this year!

I didnt get many more pictures of this because I was holding Demi and well he is to adorable to not pay attention to!

Santa Came!

Little man tearing into his presents!

Kadence and Daddy playing on Kadence's Big Car! '

I didnt get any pictures at Trevor's Mom's house! There was just to much going on for me to even think to take pictures!

How was your Christmas?

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Christmas Shopping

Do you have your Christmas Shopping done yet?

I dont! Not even close! I have Kadence's done but that is pretty much it! I still have to get Trevor's present! But I wont have the money until right before Christmas! OMG! I seriously feel like Christmas shopping will never end this year!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

And The Winner Is...

The Winner of the Coupon Giveaway is...

Rebecca Smith! 

Congrats hun!! make sure you send me your info so that I can send you your coupons!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Holy Crap Batman!

Holy Hell! I have been soo friggin busy! With Thanksgiving and now Christmas is coming and then I have my daily crap too! I have been working extra hours at work to get extra money for the holidays! I seriously feel like I just dont have enough hours in the  day! I have pretty much NONE of my friggin Christmas shopping done! fml

Do you have your shopping done?

Sunday, December 2, 2012


Do you clip coupons? 

I do! I save a crap load of money doing so too! The only problem is that I clip WAAAAY to many coupons! Like to the point that there are times that handfuls of them expire before I even think to use them! 

So here is what I am going to do! I am going to hold  a SHORT giveaway for an envelope stuffed with coupons! Now you see it has to be a short giveaway because a lot of them expire at the end of this month but either way they are coupons and they will save you a lot of money! 

I am trying out a new giveaway tool. I had some massive issues with rafflecopter becuase it wouldnt load in my post so yeah if you have any issues let me know! 


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

The D*mn Holidays

Every year I try to be so excited for the holidays but when it really comes down to it I really dont like them. I hate the chaos of it all. I hate having to run all over the place! I love my family but they are fucking picky! I had thanksgiving dinner at my house adn was so paranoid that they werent going to like it that I was pretty much going crazy! LOL I mean they all loved it but still! Now Christmas is coming up adn well to be honest I havent shopped for pretty much anyone! I know what i am planning on getting damn near everyone I just dont want to go out and actually spend the money on it!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


Worldreader: Vote for #worldreader to win the American Giving Awards 2012 http://bit.ly/U7DwbJ *Please remember the FTC requires you to mention that you received a free sample courtesy of Smiley360 when sharing.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Ergonomic Pen

So I am obsessed with trying out new pens! I always have been! When I was still waiting tables I would buy different pens to try out every few weeks or so! Recently I got to try out The UGLee Pen which is an Ergonmic Pen ! This pen was pretty awesome! First and foremost it looks crazy! That is something that always draws me to a pen! The way it looks! 

So you may be wondering why it is called The UGLee Pen.. I know that I was! 
 The UGLee pen was originally called the Dr. Lee Pen with Great Grip but then people started calling it The Ultimate Grip Pen by Dr. Lee that eventually got shortened to The UGLee Pen!

The UGLee Pen is made out of ballistic grade nylon! It is actually a refillable pen!
The gripper/pen is shaped to fit in the groves of your bones on your hand!  The ink is a cross between gel ink and ball point ink!

The UGLee pen is gguaranteed to be comfortable! In the words of Dr Lee " If you don't love it, send it back!" 

So... Who should use this pen?  Pretty much everyone should! LOL! It is designed for everyone! People with any type of hand issue from repetitive stress injurys to arthritic hands. Even if you dont have any issues with your hands use this pen! It was created to help prevent all of those issues! 

There is so much to this pen! I just dont know what else to put! If you wanted to learn more about it you can always go to the website for this AWESOME pen!

The only thing that I didn't like about this pen was that the gripper is a dust collector! I have  a cat and a toddler so there is always some type of dirt or hair on everything and this pens just seems to collect everythign! Other than that I ADORE this pen! 

I was actually lucky enough to score a few extra to do a give away with! Just click the rafflecopter link below. I am still working on getting the actual widget into the post sorry :(

a Rafflecopter giveaway

 I received one or more of the products mentioned above for free using Tomoson.com. Regardless, I only recommend products or services I use personally and believe will be good for my readers.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Day 15

Day 15  What do you dislike most about yourself?

I have been sitting here thinking about something that I dislike about myself and the first thing that pops into my head is my temper. I have a horrible temper! Maybe that is something that I should work on,..

What about you? What is something that you dislike about yourself?  

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Day 14

Day 14  What do you like most about yourself?

To be 120% honest I love my eyes! I find them to be the best part of me! Other than that I love my sense of humor! 

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Day 13

Day 13  Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart? 

Who hasnt had their heart broken at some point in time? I mean really think about it... Pretty much everyone has suffered a heartbreak in their life...Some more than others... So yes I have indeed had my heart broken, but at the same time I have broke plenty of hearts. For the longest time I would break up with someone when shit started to get rough because I didnt want them to break up with me first.. 

friggin A I suck at this challenge LOL

Day 10  A dream for the future 

My end goal is to be sucessful! I just want to prove to the world that I am not my mother. I am waay better than she is! 

Day 11  Who can’t you live without?

The one person in the world that I cant live with out is my son! He is the light to my day! 

Day 12  If you could wish for anything that would come true, what would you wish for? 

I would wish for my life to figure out where it is going. I want to know that I am on the right track to the rright place. 

Also my dearest followers I am so sorry that I wasnt on here updating like I promised you that I would be. I have had a lot of personal shit going on along with the worst hangover ever on sunday! I am so sorry! 

So what are your dreams for the future? Who is the one person that you can't live without? 
What would your wish be? 

Friday, November 16, 2012

Day 09

Day 9    Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days 

To be 100 and 10 percent honest I dont really have that many plans for the next year. Aside from buying a car.. 

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Day07 and Day 08

Ok so before you start thinking about how i promised that i was going to keep up with this challenge I want you to know that I logged on yesterday morning to post but Blogger wouldnt load for me. I had to work all day and kind of just spaced out posting but here I ma first thing this mornign to post! :)


Day 7    My worst habit 

My worst habit is smoking! We have gone over this before! 

Day 8    What’s in my handbag/purse   

Oh good god there is sooo much!
  • my wallet
  • a nail file
  • deodorant
  • my name tag
  • papers from work
  • a glow in the dark nail polish
  • 3 lipglosses
  • another deodorant (a small travel size one)
  • 2 lighters
  • 3 pens
  • my phone charger
  • a crap load of those stupid I am loved buttons
  • hand lotion
  • chapstick
  • a tea seeping spoon thing
  • tylenol
  • bobby pins
  • 2 color changing lipsticks from halloween
  • random trash
  • and at the very bottom there is some change!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Day 06

Day 6    A song that makes you cry (or nearly) 

The song that always gets me is "I wish" by R. Kelly! 


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

A pretty cool site!

So I am constantly trying to get cheap/free things to review! I actually have a huge stash of things that i need to review and post! I am just lazy! LOL anyways back on topic! One of my fav sites ever is influenster.com

It is pretty awesome! You sign up and earn badges and in return you get a voxbox! Now I know that you are probably sitting there thinking WTH is a voxbox Megan? and the answer is simple it is what you get from influesnter! It is jammed packed full of goodies for you to try out and review! I have only gotten one of these but it was soo much fun! Came with all kinds of samples and FULL size products to try out! 

You should sign up! or at least check it out! You can click the link above! 

Monday, November 12, 2012

Sh*t my son says

So my child is known for cracking people up with the stuff that he says! for example:

I wake up to hear him in his room playing saying " You the bitch! No you the bitch" ( no clue where he picked that one up!) 

He is in his room cleaning while I am in the living room cleaning he yells from his room " MOOOOMMM! Mooom!" I yell back " What Kadence?" He then says " MOM! Are you in the wall?"  I then answer " No Kadence, I am not in the wall why would I be in the wall" in return I get " It sounds like you are in the wall mom, What are you doing in the wall" so I say" Kadence I am not in the wall! I am in the livingroom" He then says " Mom you are lying to me, I know you are in the wall" I had to go into his room to prove to him that I was not in the wall! 

Just this morning he was laying in my bed with me adn looks at me and says " Mom, am I a robot?" I tell him " No lovey, You are not a robot" He looks at me and says " Yeah Huh mom feel!" while touching his ribs, so I feel his ribs and let him know, " Kadence those are your bones, you are not a robot!" and once again i am lying to him because he says " No mom I am a robot on the inside! Dont lie to me" 

A few days after Halloween he asked me if he could have some candy when I told him that he couldnt he responded with " But mom I will die!" 

Do your kids say off the wall shit like this?

Day 05

Day 05 : You dream house... 


Sunday, November 11, 2012

Day 04

Day 04: Something that you are OCD about 

To be honest there are a lot of things that I get OCD about but I think the number one is my house being clean. It drives me crazy when it isnt! Like seriously crazy! 

What is something that you can be a little or a lot OCD about?

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Day 03

Day 3    A photo taken over 10 years ago of you

I am the cutie on the top :)

Friday, November 9, 2012

Day 02

Day 02: 20 of MY favorite things

  1. My son
  2. My phone
  3. Pepperoni bacon pizza with white sauce
  4. My crazy eye shadows
  5. All my shoes that I never wear
  6. shopping
  7. my job
  8. my hair
  9. my eye
  10. The vampire diaries
  11. book in general
  12. Mountain dew
  13. My boyfriend
  14. IHOP
  15. Iphones
  16. Paris
  17. couponing
  18. money
  19. World history
  20. Life :)
What are some of your favorite things? 

those are listed in no specific order! :) 

Thursday, November 8, 2012

day 1

Day 1 : A Photo that makes you happy

This little guy always makes me smile but I absolutely ADORE this picture of him! I always smile when I look at it!

Blog Challenge (Wish me luck!)

Day 1    A photo that makes you happy
Day 2    20 of my favorite things
Day 3    A photo taken over 10 years ago of you
Day 4    Something you are OCD about
Day 5    Your dream house
Day 6    A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 7    My worst habit
Day 8    What’s in my handbag/purse
Day 9    Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 10  A dream for the future
Day 11  Who can’t you live without?
Day 12  If you could wish for anything that would come true, what would you wish for?
Day 13  Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
Day 14  What do you like most about yourself?
Day 15  What do you dislike most about yourself?
Day 16  What do people notice about you?
Day 17  What’s something you wish you could say to someone?
Day 18  Whom do you admire the most?
Day 19  What is your goal in life?
Day 20  What are the 10 most significant events in your life?
Day 21  If you died tomorrow, what’s one thing you’d regret not doing?
Day 22  What’s an inside joke you have with someone?
Day 23  Two months ago, where were you and what were you doing?
Day 24  Do you have saved text messages?  If so, who are they from and why do you still have them?
Day 25  Write 5 messages to 5 different people without using names.
Day 26  What’s something you’re really excited for?
Day 27  What do you feel guilty for doing?
Day 28  Tattoos.  If you have one, post it and its story.  If not, what do you want?
Day 29  Picture of your makeup collection
Day 30  When were the happiest days of your life?

Christmas is coming.

Christmas is just a hop skip and a jump away! Normally I have completed my Christmas shopping, not this year! I havent even started shopping! Wtf is wrong with me? Now I have to deal with all the other last minute shoppers that spaced out shopping until the last minute! But on a positive note I totally know what I want for Christmas this year! You see last year I coudnt figure it out and Trevor ended up getting me a mixer LOL! Dont get me wrong I love my mixer but still! This year I am shooting for a Kindle Fire! I read all the time and feel that because Ebooks are cheaper that it will in the end save money :) But I also really want the full version of photoshop! But I know that the practical gift to ask for would be the kindle because I will use it more! 

What do you want for Christmas? Have you started Christmas shopping? 

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

It is getting cold!

Omg it is getting cold and fast too! A few weeks ago I was still able to get away with wearing capris not I am seriously thinking about going out and getting a winter coat! What is the weather like where you? Hopefully its not that bad! 

I have been sucking at posting lately.. I just dont know what to post about. I should probably find another blog challenge or something so that I dont have a choice but to post daily. I feel like I am neglecting you guys! Sorry! 

On a side note Kadence made a new "friend" today! I was doing laundry and Kadence walks past me and says " Mom, Force is helping me throw the trash away" So I ask him "Who is Force?" To which he replies "MOOOOOMM! Force is my BEST FRIEND! " I was really confused like really really confused so I turned and asked him to tell me about force, ya know where does he live where are his parents what does he look like stuff like that Kadence then tells me " He is WHITE mom (apparently I should have known that) he lives with me, I am his mommy and daddy!" Finally I ask Kadence to just show me Force so I can meet him. He quickly said ok and runs to me! He says that he has him in his hands so I turn to look... And guess what my awesome son is holding??? A FRIGGIN DRYER SHEET!!!!! Yup thats right my child is so deprived of other child interaction that he is now befriending dryer sheets! I really just dont know how I feel about this LOL

Sunday, November 4, 2012


So as I said in my last post Cafemom was down and had been down since the 29th! It is finally back up! I am so excited! I had so much extra time on my hands I didnt know what to do with myself! I made so many cookies adn cleaned so many random things! :) But I am soo happy that Cafemom is back up! I have missed it and my friends soo  much!

Saturday, November 3, 2012


Damn near everyone has at least one addiction... 

I have quite a few, I smoke, I drink an unhealthy amount of caffeine all kinds of things! I am also addicted to a website! Cafemom.com! I adore it! I spend an ungodly amount of time on it all the time! But it has been down since Monday! I feel like I am going to go crazy with out it! I miss it so much. Although I have been able to get a crap ton of stuff done because I am not wasting my time on CM i still miss it! I can't wait for it to come back up! 

Are you addicted to a website? Have you ever had to deal with it being down? 

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Happy Late Halloween

Happy Late Halloween Everyone! 

Did you Dress up?

We did! Kadence was a clown and I was a Lady bug! 

We had a blast trick or treating! 

Monday, October 29, 2012

You Should Check out...

Hello again! 

Just dropping in to let everyone know that they should check out  Listia.com

This site is amazing! I spend so much time on it! You get to earn credits and then use the credits to bid on things! I love it! 

The ups and downs of life.

Life has been pretty bland lately... Get up go to work come home make dinner, give Kadence a bath and get him into bed. blah blah blah. But a few things have happened... 

Our effin house has fleas! OMFG THEY ARE HORRIBLE! We are treating the house tomorrow! I cannot wait! These little fuckers are driving us crazy! Like super crazy! 

I have managed to still not bite my nails!! I did get my new polish on friday! I got 2 instead of one but oh well! I got 2 china glaze polishes, one is called Cranberry Splash and the other is Glistening Snow! I adore them! 

On a different note Kadence has been asking me a lot of questions about Aiden. He wants to know why his brother died, how it happened and why. I don't know how to answer these questions for him.  How do you explain to a 3 year old that his older brother isnt with him because he was a victim of S.I.D.S.?

Saturday, October 27, 2012

New Hair Color (again)

So I finally ditched the light brown and faded pink! We are now rocking a level 5 super rich brown and a level 7 red! I love it! In the first picture you can see my nails they look alot like the red in my hair I posted a picture of the polish I had on in the picture my hair a about 2 shades brighter. I love love love it! And to make it even better after my child like fit when Trevor said that my pink hair looked juvenile he has now take to just tell me that my hair looks good no matter what LOL

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

My challenge for myself

I am a nail biter! I have been for as long as I can remember. Every couple of months I vow that I am going to stop biting my nails so that I can have long gorgeous nails like everyone else in the world but then a couple weeks go by and I end up biting my nails :( Well this time I am really going to do it! I am posting it on here so that way I will have to keep my word to myself and to my followers! It is going to happen this time! I work in a beauty supply store we have thousands of nail polishes that I drool over every single day! So what I am going to do is for every 2 weeks (pay day) that I can make it with out chomping on my nails I am going to buy myself a new polish! I think that it is a good idea! Especially since after my discount the most I ever pay for a polish is like 4.50 and those are just for the promo polishes!!  Wish me luck good friends! 

i will try to post pics of my progress as time goes on! Right now I am about a week and a half into not biting! 

Sunday, October 21, 2012

He is home!

MY DAD IS HOME! He was discharged this morning! He is still in some pain and not feeling the best but he is doing amazing! :):)

Blog Challenge

Ok everyone! As much as I would like to continue the challenge that I picked out for this month I just cant bring myself to do it! I am so sorry but it is so stupid I am having issues keeping up with doing them because they are kind of dumb! 

I will still do my best to post everyday! 

I am going to be posting a review on some false eye lashes later though :) They were interesting to put on that is all I can say for now :)

Friday, October 19, 2012

Update again on my Dad.

Hello again,
I know that I have been updating a lot about my dad but a lot has been happening with him so yeah. He was moved OUT of the ICU today! Which means that he is doing better :)  

That is all for now, I will update more when I know more. 

My Pops

I went to see my dad last night. I was so excited to go see him. He was finally awake! 
When I got there that excitement soon faded. I could tell just by looking at him that he was miserable. He said that he felt horrible. He doesnt remember anything about being in the hospital at all. He remembers going to work on the 8th and that is it. He was worried that he had gone and then been under and no one knew where he was. We made sure to let him know that we all knew where he was the whole time adn that we had been coming to visit him as much as we could. He has been restrained because when he woke up he flailed a lot and accidently hit and kicked a few people, My little sister found out from our Grandma that when our Grandpa went up there to see Dad that Dad was trying to talk him into helping him leave and that when our Grandpa told him no Dad told him to get out. He wants to leave the hospital. It isnt clicking with him that he is there because he is really really sick. It kills me to see him like this. But the fact that he is awake makes it so much better. 

I love you Dad! Keep pushing thru! 

Day 20

Day 20: A Letter To : -The one that broke your heart the hardest

Dear Heart Breaker, 

We were together for so long and did so well. I don't remember for the life of me why we broke up the first time but we did and it hurt. I moved out of town and was gone for 2 years, when I came back you were one of the first people I wanted to see so i called you and you came running to see me. I knew the moment I saw you that we still had our spark. We got back together with in the week. You amazed me daily. I was so in love with you. I remember that on Christmas morning you showed up extra early so that you could wake me up and give me my ring :) It was so sweet! Things were going great for us but then it all just changed all of the sudden.. You broke up with me on Valentines day! I was crushed! Completely and totally crushed. Come to find out weeks later you broke up with me because I didnt do my hair and make up anymore... That was so shallow of you. You broke my heart so bad then you would have thought that I had learned my lesson but nope I let you do it to me 2 more times. But now I know better. I know that I will always love you but that you arent the one for me. I have forgiven you for hurting me and only want the best for you. 


Thursday, October 18, 2012

My Dad,

My Dad started to show improvement on monday and tuesday! His pancreas is starting to shut down! They are going to wake him up today to see if he is able to breathe on his own! If he is then the breathing tube can stay out!

Day 19

Day 19 : A Letter To: -Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Ok I am not even going to try this one! Next time I pick up a blog challenge I am going to make damn sure that I read the whole list of the challenge because some of these are really really stupid! 

Day 18

Day 18:  A Letter To : -The person that you wish you could be

Dear Future Self, 
I am supposed to be writing you a letter but I have no clue what I am supposed to write about so yeah um.. How's life? I just dont know what to say. 


Day 17: A Letter To  -Someone from your childhood

I dont really know who to write this to sooo um yeah here ya go

Dear Child Hood friend who's name I cant remember, 
Man we were so close as friends! We had sleep overs and rode bikes together all that childhood fun but here we are years later and I cant remember your name for the life of me! I know that you went to college and got married had a baby but thats about it... Sorry LOL 


Monday, October 15, 2012

Update on my Dad.

As everyone should know my dad has been in the hospital with pancreatitis. He was put on a ventilator on thursday. My grandma had all of us meet up yesterday so that she could update us on him. She spoke with his doctor that morning and was told that on top of his lungs not functioning his liver has now stopped working. The doctor told her that they dont think that he is going to make, :( I have done nothing but cry off and on since I found out. Please pray to whoever you pray to for my daddy. He has to make it through this! We need him more now than ever before !

Day 16

Day 16 : A Letter To : -Someone that’s not in your state/country

Dear Grandma and PaPa, 
I know that I have been difficult to talk to over the last several years and I am sorry for that, but I need you to remember that I have grown up a lot of the last several years. I am not that little girl that you remember from so long ago. I love you and miss you terribly but I can't let you treat me like I am child anymore that is part of the reason that I don't call anymore. That and the fact that you always act like you are better than everyone. You aren't just so you know. you are just the same as everyone else. Sure you have earned the respect of people but so have I. I deserve to be respected just as much as the next person. I hope that you guys are doing ok. 

Love megan. 

On a side note this is my 100th post! :):) 

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Day 15

Day 15: A Letter To -The person you miss the most

Dear Javanna, 
Dude I miss you soo much! I hate the fact that we live so far apart from each other! We both have kids that are close to the same age and they dont know each other :( We havent seen each other in almost 4 years :( I miss your face banna! 


Day 14

Day 14: A Letter To : -Someone you’ve drifted away from

Dear Sister, 

We used to be so close I would call you about everything. Now we have grown apart. I miss you so much! I miss staying up late with you and talking about anything and everything. I know that you have your own stuff going on but I still miss you sooo much! I just wish that you still lived close to me so that we could still hang out and everything. Either way I love you and miss you sooo much! 

Little Sister!  

Day 13

Day 13 : A Letter To : -Someone you wish could forgive you

This is a tough thing to think about. I am a pretty forgiving person most of the time so I dont have that many people that i havent been able to forgive but the ones that I do have dont deserve to be forgiven. 

Dear Brett, 
I have tried for years to forgive you for not being there for me when Aiden died. You werent there at all it was like you didnt care. You went to wichita and refused to answer your phone for me. I wanted to be the one to tell you that Aiden had passed away but you wouldnt answer yoru phone. I wanted you to be there to help me plan our childs funeral but you werent you didnt show up until the day of the funeral. You expected me to run to you and let you hold me. Why on earth would I have ever done that. You werent there in the days leading up to the funeral. I was so hurt. I still am. You hurt me more than anyone else in the world could. You were there to get me pregnant and then you were gone. You werent there for most of my pregnancy, you werent there for his birth, his death for anything. I hated you for it. I have learned to deal with the hatred I felt then but I dont think that I can ever forgive you for not being there for me. 


Day 12

Day 12: A Letter To:  The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Dear Ex Boyfriend, 

We were so good together when we first got together. I really thought that we would last a really long time. I will never forget how we met. A "friend" set us up because you wanted a booty call and she knew that I would shut you down on the stupid crap. We met at the mall in 3rd planet, You had just got into town I had Kadence with me. I was there shopping around being a girl when our friend called me and told me to come meet you. I didnt like you at first I thought that you were snobby, but our friend insisted that I take your number and consider going on a date with you. I took your number and we started texting back and forth. We went out to dinner a few days later. We went to my fav place to eat. I ate like a dude and you barely ate you had a little appetizer. After that we decided that we should go out and do something else. We were going to go to the strip club because well I just dont remember why we decided on that, My baby sitter had something come up so I had to go get Kadence and couldnt go out. You stayed in with me and we sat around playing stupid games. You had to leave town a couple days later. We continued to text back and forth everyday all day. I knew that I was supposed to be with you. You asked me when I was going to come to you all the time I finally told you that I wanted to move down there to be with you and you came and got me. I dropped everything at home to move to be with you. Things were amazing. I was lonely but it was ok because I had you. Things started to get rocky and before I knew it I found out that you had been messing around with another girl. I left you. I couldnt deal with the pain. I moved back home. I told myself that I wasnt going to talk to you anymore and that I was just done with you. But you kept talking to me and you wouldnt give up on me. I finally gave up and started talkign to you. We ended up getting back together. When you finally came home we got a house together and thats when everything started to fall apart. You were such a different person. I couldnt stand you. You were so controlling and didnt understand when I tried to talk to you about it. I was so hurt.  I tried to work things out but you were so mean and nasty to me all the time without even realizing it. I turned to a friend and you found out you were so upset you made me stop talking to him. I could only take so much before it was finally to much. We broke up. We tried to be civil because of Kadence, You told me that you still wanted to be in his life but then you refused to be there for him when he needed you. I think that that is one of the things that hurt me the most. The fact that you hurt my son. I dont know if I will ever be able to forgive you for the things that you did but just know that while we did have some bad times we still had some pretty good times too. 


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Pray For My Daddy.

My dad is in the hospital with pancreatitus. I didn't know what that was until I found out that he has it. I did a lot of research on it.

The pancreas basically makes acid that is typically released in the small intestine but in his case he has a massive build up of it in his pancreas and it is releasing in his pancreas. This is causing him to be in excrutiating pain even with a morphine drip. They are treating this by basically trying to his pancreas to shut down so that it will stop making the enzymes that are being released in the wrong place. He has been there since monday around noon. He hasnt been aloud to eat or drink anything in attempt to shut down the pancreas. He is still in horrible pain and is now having issues breathing. They had him on oxygen when I went to see him tuesday night. I just found out that he had been moved to the ICU because his stats arent staying up  where they need to be! THey hadnt been able to determine if he had acute pancreatitis or severe acute pancreatitis or chronic pancreatitis. With the extreme drop in stats and having basically no progress we are all leaning towards severe acute pancreatitis or chronic.

I am so worried about my dad. He has always been the strong one in my life. He has always been there for me to pick me up when i am down and now he is really sick and all I can do is cry. I tried talking to bestie about it but she fluffed me off because she just had her baby. I understand that she just had her baby. But her baby is going to be here for a very long time, my dad could die from this. I just need someone to comfort me right now and nobody seems to understand that

Day 11

Day 11 : A Letter to : -A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

 Dear Morgan, 
Holy hell man I miss you so much! I have soooo much going on and could really just use a hug from you and to hear you say that it was going to be ok. I had my old phone that had all my videos of you on it. Kadence broke it last year adn I lost the videos :(:(. I just want you to know that I am sorry that I didnt answer my phone when you needed me. I regret it every single day. I miss you sooo much. I just wish that I could see you one last time. 


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Bestie Had her baby

So Bestie had her baby last night! 

That isnt the best picture but it is the one that I have on my computer so yeah its the one that you get to see! His name is Logan Alexander he was 6lbs 13 oz 20 inches long! And let me tell you he is a screamer! But that is good because besties last baby had lung issues when he was born so it was good to see this little dude come out wailing LOL

Day 10

Day 10 : A Letter to -Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

I am pretty sure that I have already had to at some point in time write a letter like this. 
But oh well I will write it now just to make sure it gets done

Dear Old friend, 
I have known you since I was 12, you are my oldest friend but I never talk to you and you never talk to me. You don't have time and neither do i. I wish that we could find the time to hang out here and there but I am sure if we did your girl would flip out.. I know that she is the reason that we dont talk and to be honest at first I was upset but I understand it now. i hope that you guys are able to work things out. You deserve the best in life and right now she isnt that. Keep in touch. 


Monday, October 8, 2012

Day 9

Day 9 : A Letter To -Someone you wish you could meet

Dear Future Self, 
I really wish that I could meet you! Why? Because then I would be able to ask you if everything I am working towards is the right choice to make or if I am working towards nothing. I want to know if I am headed in the right direction and if I am where is it going to lead me? I just want some reassurance that I am doing the right thing... 

Current Self!  

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Day 8

Day 8: A Letter To: -Your favorite internet friend

Ok so I am supposed to be writing to my fav. internet friend but to be honest I don't think that i have one! SO I am totally not doing this day for this challenge! HAHAHAHA Sorry but I just cant do this one. 

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Day 7

 Day 7: A Letter to -Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

So apparently I get to pick who I write this to. SO I am going to just start writing it. I know who I am writing it to and we will see if you can figure it out... 

Dear Person, 
We have had good times and we have had bad times. We have known each other for so long and one would normally think that that would mean that I knew you the best out of everyone I know. That used to be true. Not anymore. You have a baby now and i have never even seen her. :( I know that we have separated over time but I want you to know that it breaks my heart. I hate that we dont talk anymore because of who you are dating.. It seriously drives me bonkers! But on a more positive note I now know for a fact that no matter what happens I will never go back to you. You have hurt me 1 to many times and I just cant do it ever again. I will always have a soft spot for youbut thats all. I hope that you are happy with her and if you arent then I hope that you find happiness. I will always love you,,, 


Friday, October 5, 2012

Day 6

Day 6 : A Letter To... A stranger

Dear Stranger, 
I don't know you, not even your name. I see you at the gas station almost ever day. . You were behind the counter. You always are. You know that I always get a mountain dew and a pack of camel filters! You typically have it all rang up before I am even at the counter.  We have pointless chit chat every day. But I cant help but feel that you have a lot going on in your life. You have that super stressed out look on your face all the time. I know that you have a family and that your youngest doesnt have the best health. I am sorry if something is going on. Just remember that you are an amazing person and everyday you help make someones day better! The fact that you ask me more about my job and my day than my boyfriend does means a lot to me. Even if you are just a stranger behind a counter. It is nice to know that someone cares about my day. Thank you for being you! 

The girl that gets the mountain dew and camels!  

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Macadamia Flawless

I recently tried Macadamia Flawless! The first thing I asked when I saw it was " What in the world is it? " Well because I know I can't be the only person in the world to wonder what it is here you go.. 

Flawless is the newest addition to the Macadamia Natural Oil range. 
It is an innovative system that combines cleansing, conditioning and ideal hair refinement in one product. Immediate and perfect balance is restored to any hair type, giving gentle and thorough surfactant-free hair cleansing. With a combination of Macadamia Oil and Argan Oil, Flawless works in conjunction with the hair’s natural oils, replenishing hair life and health and imparting manageability, shine and softness. With no stripping suds or parabens, this all in one cleansing and conditioning system will drastically cut down blow drying time, refine the hairs texture and optimise the styling process making hair more manageable.

Now I don't know about you but when I read that I got bored about half way through and stopped reading it LOL! Even now I still only read about half of it before I got bored with it. Basically what it says is that Flawless is an all in one product it cleanses like shampoo and conditions as well. It is basically everything you need for your hair all in one container!

Here are just some of the benefits of Flawless 

  • All-in-one Cleansing and Conditioning System
  • Refines Hair Texture
  • Optimizes Styling Process
  • Drastically Cuts Down Blow Drying Time
  • Perfect For All Hair Types
  • Surfactant-free and Paraben-free
  • No Stripping Suds

  • I read that all the way! No Suds? What? I love super sudsy shampoo! It makes me feel like it is getting extra clean! Anyways I did use this stuff not just check out the container! 

    Ok so now onto the fun part! How to use Flawless! 

    Now you see I was a little set off by the packaging of it. It seriously looks like a can of mousse! But I figured I would try it out anyways! SO  Here are the directions off the can/bottle 
    Lightly emulsify 1 to 2 pumps between hands. Apply to wet hair and gently massage spreading Flawless over hair and scalp area. Continuously massage throughout the hair for 3 to 5 minutes depending on hair type. Add a splash of water to assist in the spreading if needed. Rinse thoroughly. 

    Sounds simple enough.. Right? NOT! Ok so when they say Lightly emulsify 1 to 2 pumps between hands they forget to mention that the pump has a little seal like thing on it that you have to manhandle to get the pump to actually pump and that just when you think that you broke it its good to go! But once you get that stuff to start coming out you are good! Now I'll be honest I didnt really know what emulsify meant at first but then I figured it probably means to just rub that S**t together in my hands (it totally does) So I get some of the Flawless out and start to emulsify it in my hands and just like the bottle says it doesnt turn into suds or anything but it does get kind of foamy like a shaving cream would. Now the massaging part was easy the only issue I had was telling where I had the product and where I didnt but once I got it all into my hair I was good to go! I massaged it in my hair for about 5 minutes or at least I think it was! Then I rinsed it out and finished my shower! It left my hair feeling pretty soft and amazing! I forgot to get some pictures of it that day but it was pretty amazing! It did cut down on the blow dry time too which helped alot because I was running late from fighting with the can to get it to pump out the product! All in all it is a pretty good product just something new that would take some getting used to!  

     You can purchase Flawless at : http://www.macadamiahair.com/products/view/flawless

    It costs :   $33.00 

    I know it cost a little more than most are willing to spend but remember that it is everything that you need for your hair all in one! 

    I write this blog for my personal enjoyment. From time to time I may give my opinion on a product or service. It is just my opinion, I'm not an expert in the field and other people's opinions may differ (I can't help it if they are wrong, ha ha).

    To keep my reviews independent and free of conflicts of interest, my personal policies for reviews are:

    1. This blog receives no payment or other compensation for advertising.
    2. This blog receives no payment or other compensation for reviews of products or services.
    3. If I did not pay full retail price for a product being reviewed, I will explicitly state that in the review.
    4. Unless explicitly stated, I have no affiliation or relationship with the supplier of a product being reviewed.
    5. Acceptance of a free sample does not guarantee a review. I follow a "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all" rule of thumb. If I like a product, I'll review it. If not, I'm not going to embarrass a supplier.

    Day 5

    Day 5: A letter to.. 

    -Your dreams

    Ok so to be honest I don't know how the hell I am supposed to write a letter to my dreams. I have been sitting here thinking about this one all day. Even as I was writing all the other posts I needed to catch up on and well I still dont know WTF I am supposed to write about... So instead I am just gonna post a random picture from my computer! and as always I will really just open up my pictures folder and click a picture ;)  

    And apparently you all need to see the last steps for my green eye shadow tutorial LOL

    Day 4

    Day 4: A letter to...

    -Your sibling (or closest relative)

    Well I have a lot of siblings! So I am going to just write a letter to all of them combined as opposed to individually! 

    Brother and Sisters, 

    Man oh Man, The crazy times that we have had! I cherish each and everyone one of you! And dont know where I would be without you! I know that I am closer to some of you than the others but it is nothing personal. Just the fact that they live closer... I love you guys and hope you are all doing ok! 


    Day 3

     Day 3 : A Letter To Your parents

    I am going to write separate letters to my parents but I am also going to do this a little different than most people. I have my mom and then I have Boady and Pat. Boady is the dad that raised me. And Pat is my biological dad, Anyways I just thought that i would let you guys know that before hand :):)

    It has been months since I have spoke to you. And to be honest I dont really care. You are by far the most hurtful person I have ever known. You will always be my mom and I will always love you but to be 100% honest I am happier without you in my life. It pains me to know that my son will never know you but at the same time I am happy that he wont because I dont want him to know you. He has other family here that will be better to him and for him. I am sorry that you arent in the best of health but maybe just maybe it is because of all of the bad things that you have done to everyone that you loved... 


    Hey pops, Hows life? I am so happy that I was lucky enough to have you as my dad growing up but I feel like that since I have "grown up" we have become more and more distant... I know i know it is i a 2 way street and all that jazz but sometimes I feel like you dont really care if we talk. IDK maybe I am just being dramatic.. Any ways I love you old man! 


    I am so happy that I got to meet you! I remember the day that I met you! One of the first things that you said to me was that I looked just like my mom. That still holds true too LOL! I know that I have said some hurtful things to you through the years. I was just upset and hurt. I thought that you didnt want to be around or want anything to do with me. I know now that that was wrong. I am happy that I was able to get over that and that we have gotten so much closer! I was so excited that you were here for christmas last year! I really hope that you can come again sometime! I love you! 


    Playing Catch Up!

    So sorry everyone I just haven't been feeling 100% lately :(:( Im still not feeling the best but I am going to catch up from the last few days of the blog challenge. I also have a few reviews I need to catch up on. So just a heads up I am gonna be  posting a lot today! 


    Monday, October 1, 2012

    Day 2:  A Letter to Your Crush

    Dear Ian Somerhaulder,
      I sincerely hope that they cast you in 50 shades! That would literally be a dream come true! I have watch everything you have even been in! I follow you on twitter and FB. You are amazing! Just wanted to let you know all that good stuff!


     On a side note... Who came up with this blog challenge and how did I not notice that day 2 was this dumb? I tried to sound like an obsessed teenager hope it worked! 

    Sunday, September 30, 2012

    Day 1

    Day 1 :  A letter to your best friend

    We have been through so much stuff together over the years! It only makes sense that you get to be the first person I write a letter to! I love you to death and would be so lost with out you! You are more like family to me than most of my family! Believe it or not this is actually kind of tough to write this right now. I am a little upset with you. You have been so mean and snappy towards me lately and I just don't know what to do about it. I know that you are prego and hormonal and all but i just dont feel like that is all that is going on with you right now. You wont talk to me about it either which makes it even worse. :/  I just don't know what to do anymore. You are so bitchy when I come over to hang out but then I feel bad when I avoid coming over because I know that you get lonely. I just wish that you would just talk to me about what is going on. 


    Another Blog Challenge

    So I have decided that i need to start another blog challenge because well if I dont then I probably wont ever blog again LOL!  I have been searching all over the internet trying to figure out what i should blog about this time around what the challenge should be and I finally came across one! Now we all know that September is a pretty tough month for me! I am kind of relieved that this month will be over as of midnight today! But with that being said I am proud of myself for making it through another rough month! Anyways the Blog Challenge I have picked this time around is called " A letter to" It is going to be a series of letters to people that I know have known and all that good stuff. Like always I am going to post the list on here and then go from there. If you have any blog challenges or ideas for Challenges let me know! I will for sure give them a shot! 

    A Letter to…
    1. -Your Best Friend
    2. -Your Crush
    3. -Your parents
    4. -Your sibling (or closest relative)
    5. -Your dreams
    6. -A stranger
    7. -Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
    8. -Your favorite internet friend
    9. -Someone you wish you could meet
    10. -Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
    11. -A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
    12. -The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
    13. -Someone you wish could forgive you
    14. -Someone you’ve drifted away from
    15. -The person you miss the most
    16. -Someone that’s not in your state/country
    17. -Someone from your childhood
    18. -The person that you wish you could be
    19. -Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
    20. -The one that broke your heart the hardest
    21. -Someone you judged by their first impression
    22. -Someone you want to give a second chance to
    23. -The last person you kissed
    24. -The person that gave you your favorite memory
    25. -The person you know that is going through the worst of times
    26. -The last person you made a pinky promise to
    27. -The friendliest person you knew for only one day
    28. -Someone that changed your life
    29. -The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
    30. -Your reflection in the mirror

    Friday, September 28, 2012

    Why Does This Always Happen?

    Does this happen to anyone else? Just when things start to get good it all starts going to hell? Its happening to me! 

    Everything has finally been looking up in life Trevor and I are doing better money isnt as tight things are just falling into place.... Then all of the sudden the truck blows a tire. That's $120 that we dont have to spare that we had to spend on a new tire. The very next day Trevor drops me off at work and the truck wont start. It needs a new battery and until it gets on we are going to have to randomly get a jump... Day after that? I find out that while yes I am going to be getting more hours at work but that I am also going to be getting garnished :/ WTF!!! 

    Thursday, September 20, 2012

    Over the years....

    I like to think that over the years I have changed a lot.... I know that my appearance has always been my go to thing when I feel like I really really need a change! I was looking thru some pictures the other day and was amazing at the changes I have made... What do you think?

     I was 14
    I was 15 
     17 with kirstie at age 18
     I had just turned 18 in this one 
    I believe I was 19 in this

     19 again  IN both the picture above and the one below

     19 at kirstie and seans wedding

     19 one last time

     20 this was shortly after my bday
     20 again
    20 again 


    20 again

     Thanksgiving day (i was 20)


    21 again

    22 :) 

     Last but not least my most recent picture :) 

    How much have you changed over the years? Leave me a comment and let me know!!!